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A raped child’s worst nightmare!!!

A raped child’s worst nightmare.

I have not posted anything for a while because if I did it would be nothing but four letter swear words and meaningless ranting.

I have found out that now the incompetent CPS have decided not to charge the childs rapist, the mother is forcing the poor kid to move back into the family home to live with the man who has been raping her.

COME ON – where are the authorities???

Why are alarm bells not ringing all around the Social Services?

Just because the CPS has decided that there is not enough evidence to mount a prosecution, it does not mean the rapist has been found not guilty, it means just what it says – there is not enough evidence….

So why is the mother being allowed to take the child straight back into his arms for him to rape her again?

I am going mad with worry – I have not slept for the last 3 days since finding this out.

NO ONE seems to care about this kid and I don’t know what to do.



Why is everyone and everything so annoying today?

Where ever I go or what ever I do I cant get any space to think or breath. Everyone is winding me up and I seem to be in a constant state of anger today. Even my dog is getting on my nerves and he is just an animal.

I used to be so laid back you know, what ever happened happened and so on but now that side of me seems to have gone and I dont like it at all.

Everytime I see a police car I wanna just go and have a go at them and shout WHY ARNT YOU DOING SOMETHING but all that will do is get me arrested.

Turn the TV on and apart from rubbish programs its just Christmas adverts argggggggggggg I doont wanna know about christmas, there isnt gonna be one for me this year.

Thats my latest rant over – had to get that off my chest 😦

Its almost 3am and I cant sleep (again).

Its almost 3am and I cant sleep (again).

I took my sleeping tablets almost 3 hours ago and they still havent worked.

I dont know why I care so much about whats happened to this kid but I do. Reading her text messages again tonite has reopened it all for me. She was so vaunrable and scared and she pleaded with me not to report her rape. At first I promised I wouldnt but then when she sent me a text that night saying she though she was gonna be raped that night I had no choice but to report it.

I could not leave her to be raped again – who could have done that?

She predicted all along how her family would smother her and lie to the police. She predicted that no one would beleive her and she predicted nothing would happen and to my deep regret and horror she was right.

As soon as I reported it within days her mother had started telling my villagers that I had put her up to it and inteneded to split her mother and step father (the rapist) up but thats plain mad coz I didnt hardly know them. Why on earth would I wanna do that, what would be my motive?

Of course, everyone beleived her and I was driven out of my lovely home over night and it still sits there full of my life times possesions (thats if the locals havn’t been in and wrecked it).

It was a diversion of course, a smle screen to get everyone attention off the step father who the mother still deeply loves.

The sad thing is there is a clear cycle of abuse in this family.

The mother was physiccly abused as a child by her mother who used to hit her so hard it made her teath rattle. I know this coz the childs mother came to me and told me during a secret heart to heart while the Step dad was at work, She also told me that the step dad had never bothered with the child as it wasnt his and he was only intertested in his own son with the child mother (the childs step brother who the child reports just stays at her all day and blames her for blaming his dad.

the child gran abuses the child be caling her a f^^king selfish little bitch and worse. the child hinted that hr gran wacks her also. Then there is the child real father (she shant seen him since she was one year old). He used to beat the child mother up so badly she need hosiptal – she left him and now ended up with the kids step father who rapes her. Its a classic cycle but yet the authorities do nothing and left the kid in danger.

I am finding it hard to live with my feelings, why do i care so much and why is it eating me up?

Why dio I get these reocurring night mares nite after nite.

I am constantly on edge and my nerves are shot to hell.

A most painful task

Even now I can not look at anything to do with this child without it opening a floodgate of emotions that I didnt know where lerking there.

I have been forcing myself to read all of her text messages and the disclosers of her rape and abuse are clearly there.

Its like I am reliving it all over again and if I can read it in black and white, if it is in a form that cannot be denied then why on earth have the Police not done something about it?

Why is the scum who did this henious act to an innocent child still walking about enjoying life as if nothing happened?

Its beyond me, the injustice is over welming.

Yes yes I know that sadly this happens to other kids but I do not know them and cannot help them, god I wish I could but I do know this kid, and I do know what happened to her.

Its just eating me up.

Have also checked my email today and still not one single lousy MP has replied – how shite is that?

Whats wrong with them, some of them will have kids of their own, some maybe the same age as the girl Im trying to help, hell this could just as easy be their daughter yet still they dont want to know?

Its sick.

its a never ending nightmare

Another long slow day has gone by and it feels like I’m living a half life… not even that really.

All I know is that out there is this child that I have come to care about and she is being abused everyday. She is at risk of more rape by her step father and no one seems to care.

Not a single MP has replied to my emails and only around 5 members of the House of Lords have even bothered to answer.

I have a copy of the NSPCC report on the kid and it says that in the opinion of the NSPCC she is extremely vaunrable and urgent action should be taken to protect her.

So how in the name of jack can the police and social services in the UK just ignore this?

How can they get away with leaving her where she is?

I am sick and disgusted of this country and especially of the so called child protection services.

What protecetion have they given her?

She was raped when she was 10 and gave indications that it was on going (thats close on to 6 years of rape for F**ks sake)  – men have been jailed for years on a lot less proof, what does this poor kid have to do to get justice?

COME ON UK POLICE – get of ya lazy arses and help this kid!!!!!!!!!!!!

The rapist should be behind bars not living a normal life in the community.

more nightmares

Had yet another nightmare last night and its the same bloody one that I keep having.

The kid texts me to say ‘he’s raping me he’s raping me’ and although I can strangly read her incoming text I cant move to reply. Nothing works, my arms or legs, I am struggling to move, to answer this poor kid but I just cant move.

Then I wake up in a sweat….

This haunts me, I have had this same dream for months and month now.


I cant stop it.

Every child matters – yeah but not in the UK they dont.

Another depressing day has gone by and I have been trying to use it as best I could.

I have been very busy over the last few weeks emailing anyone in the UK that I feel may be involved in Child Protection or Children’s Rights Including many people at the Houses of Parliament and the reaction from within the two Houses or Parliament could not be clearer.

Being blunt, the lazy arsed MP’s dont want to know while the members of the House of Lords have been most kind.

 I have emailed all of the Members of the House of Lords who publish a public email address and I have had a couple of very supportive replies for which I am extremely grateful. Some expressed shock for the child and one or two were concerned regarding the behaviour of the Police but no one offered to try and help.

Three honourable members expressed an interest and asked to be kept informed, hence this email, and that is more than I hoped would happen. Other members have read the email but not replied, while many others still simply deleted it without reading, including some members who are involved with Police and Child Protection matters.

One honourable person has said that they will bring matters to the attention of the All-Party group for Abuse Investigations which is fantastic if they can do anything to stop other children suffering.

I spent many hours researching what I hoped would be the appropriate government ministers and staff and tracking down their public email addresses. I then sent them the same email but not one person has replied or even read the email as far as I am aware.


I sent the email to various Ministers and people within the following departments:

Leader of the House of Commons, Lord Privy Seal, Minister for Women, and Cabinet Minister for Equality                                           

Minister of State at the Government Equalities Office and Ministry of Justice.                   

Secretary to the Government Equalities Office                                 

The Attorney General                                   

The Attorney General’s Office – Parliamentary Branch:

The Solicitor General     

Lord Chancellor and Secretary of State for Justice

Parliamentary Under Secretary Of State for Justice

Parliamentary Branch

Parliamentary Under-Secretary, Ministry of Justice. Criminal Cases Review Commission  and Criminal Injuries Compensation Authority

Minister of State, Department for Children, Schools and Families. Youth Justice Board and Joint Youth Justice Unit (jointly with, DCSF Minister of State) and Government Equalities Office responsibilities.                                              

Parliamentary Under Secretary of State

Minister of State for the Ministry of Justice and Democracy, constitution and law (other than EU and international, Supreme Court, and judicial policy)

Minister of State (Crime and Policing)

Parliamentary Under-Secretary (Identity) (also Lord in Waiting)

Secretary of State for Children, Schools and Families

Minister of State (Schools and Learners) & Minister of State (Security, Counterterrorism, Crime and Policing)     

Parliamentary Under-Secretary (Children, Young People and Families)

Parliamentary Under-Secretary (Schools)

Minister of State – Department of Children

Parliamentary Under-Secretary of State for 14-19 Reform and Apprenticeship

Minister of State (Schools and Learners)              

Parliamentary Branch

Minister of State – Cabinet office

Minister of State (Third Sector)

Parliamentary Secretary

Secretary of State for Communities and Local Government

Minister of state for the East Midlands

Parliamentary Under-Secretary, Department for Children, Schools and Families

Minister of State – Children, Schools and Families and Minister for the North West

Minister of State – Children, Schools and Families

Parliamentary Under Secretary of State (Schools and Learners)

Parliamentary under Secretary of State (Crime Reduction incl sexual offences)

I am disappointed and saddened to report that Ed Balls, or anyone from his office, have failed to even acknowledge the email despite the subject matter being very much within his remit.

I have also sent the email to members of :

The All-Party Parliamentary Group for Abuse Investigations.

All-Party Parliamentary Group for Children.

I have also emailed EVERY single MP to lobby them to ask questions and try and bring matters to the attention of the appropriate Ministers. It is interesting to note that only one MP has replied by saying I should email the Prime Minister (as if he will get to read it let alone act on it), and, sadly, many have simply deleted the email without even reading it despite this being a subject that they should care about. To say I am disgusted with them is understating how I feel. Even my own MP has not read or replied to my email.

I have also emailed:

As many UK Members of the European Parliament whose email I could find.

So far 5 have deleted the email without reading it and none have replied at all.

All members of the European Parliament – Human Rights Committee.

Not read or replied.

Two Commissioners – The Equality and Human Rights Commission, who are also members of the House of Lords and two publicly listed supporters of the Children’s Rights Alliance for England, also Members of the House of Lords.

No one has read or replied to the email.

I also contacted Ofsted using their Whistle blowing email address and they did reply saying ‘my concerns may not fall within our legal remit for Whistleblowing’.

As I hope this email illustrates, I am very serious about, and deeply committed to, trying to help this child and bring the wider issue to the attention of people who can ask the appropriate questions and get things done in order to stop this happening to other children.

The NSPCC and Childline can only do so much and eventually all matters are referred to the Social Services and/or the Police.  As the problem seems to be with them and the way the deal with and treat child victims then it is these services that need looking at.

I simply cannot accept that it is acceptable for a child to be left at the real risk of further rape and abuse. I also fail to see how this is in the ‘best interests of any child’ and there would be a public outcry should this become known.